Tuesday, August 20, 2013

Pre-Reiki Self-Healings and What I Hope to Accomplish

William H. Ross

I come to Reiki at a point in my life when I feel as if a change is necessary.  For many years I have floundered my way through life seemingly lost.  I grew up with many health issues for asthma and joint issues to panic attacks and unexplained seizures.  At the age of 7 I was diagnosed with epilepsy only because the doctors could not figure out what was causing my seizures.  I think I had a sense back then that it was connected to anxiety issues, and I knew where the anxiety was coming from.  Abused and sexually assaulted in childhood I was a very quiet, anxious person, and most of the time a loner of sorts. 

I say “of sorts” because I truly was never alone.  From a very early age, well before the onset of the seizure activity, I could sense things in the world that others could not.  Many times I was frightened by what I sensed and saw.  Since childhood I have been gifted with the ability to see and communicate with spirits, with the dead.  It was always an uncomfortable gift that at times has seemed like a curse.  I learned early on that it was a subject that you don’t bring up around family and friends.  They tend to look at you as if you are crazy.  I knew I wasn’t, but when you are told enough times that you are you start to wonder, especially when you are a young child.

It didn’t help initially that I was brought up in the church.  The subject of spirits and spirit communication and of sensing the unseen is a taboo subject in the mainstream American church setting.  I felt I had nowhere to turn.  I even attempted to speak with my minister on the subject and was actually accused of being some sort of anti-Christ, thus I was soured toward the Christian religion at an early age.  Still I tried to fit in as best I could, ignoring my gifts, even believing they were only my imagination.

In my early 20s I found Wicca, a beautiful nature religion which seemed to accept me and my gifts, at least for a time.  And this is where I first heard about Reiki, an energy healing technique developed my Mikao Usui.  I was of course intrigued.  I had long known that I wanted to find a way to serve and heal the spirit of mankind that had so long rejected me and my gifts.  I didn’t understand why at the time, but somehow I just knew that I was meant to be a healer and to even heal myself having experienced a healing from a group of strangers who had become my friends, and this healing I was told was in fact Reiki.  I felt wonderful afterward.  I had been in a wheelchair for a short few months prior to this healing and afterward, I could walk.  I knew this was a gift and I wanted to be a part of it.  But as often happens in life obstacles come into our path and change the course even if only for a short time.

In my mid 30s I began to question things again, and question my faith.  I began to remember the pain of my past, of being molested, of being judged and harassed.  During that time period I walked away from the Wiccan path that I had so loved believing as others had told me that it had somehow come from the devil and that I would burn for it.  I didn’t realize until recently that this is a falsehood and that it is just another way of reaching out to the same divine spirit, but I digress.  During the interim between the times I left Wicca and came back to it, even returning to my former church for a short time, I have experienced extreme bouts of anxiety and panic attacks.  I have struggled with bouts of depression and even suicidal thoughts.  I’ve been on medication for the last 3 years and in therapy until 6 months ago after which I came to the realization that I was who I was and I believe what I believed and returned to Celtic Wicca and Druidism.  In it I have found the love and understanding I was seeking and through it I realized it was time to get back to where my path had been leading me all along and I began to heal leaving my anxieties and panic attacks and seizures and hurts and pains behind me, and I will not look back. 

I went in search of a course in Reiki so that I could help to heal others.  I prayed to the Divine Mother to aid me in my search and almost immediately I found Reiki Blessings Academy during a Google search.  I had looked at other sites and other schools, but this one just seemed to draw me to it, and then I found Dharmadevi’s page on Facebook and felt a kindred spirit with her and at that moment I knew this was the right place for me.



My goals are simple:

1.       To learn and grow in my spirituality and faith
2.       To provide spiritual guidance and counseling through The Universal Light
3.       To heal myself and to heal others
4.       To teach others to use this gift which is free to all
5.       To help others to know they are never alone and that spirit is always there for them
6.       To become a holistic health practitioner
7.       To open my own business called “Reaching Beyond the Light: Reiki and Natural Healing” where I can heal and teach as well as sell my own line of herbal health products, lotions, tinctures, tea blends, and candles which I love to make and also helps to uplift my spirit. (The name came to me in a vision.)
8.       To continue on my journey toward true enlightenment and to help others to find it as well


These are my goals, and I know I can achieve them with Reiki and with spirit as my guide.

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